OK so here is that thing..

So I had some random birthday things I made for ya and I thought I would give them a little home))) hehe
Get those 3D Glasses READY!!!

:* Happy Belated Birthday,  **even though these were on time!!

Here with you!

I am here with you right now!

I could not be happier :)

I love my millie!!!

..in a few hours I will be driving to Chicago!!!

 I can't believe it!

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Short love poems for my love!)

I Can Feel You. You’re far away, but, I can feel you.

You exist in my every breath, in every beat of my heart,
adding a spectacular sizzle in all the right places.
Even when I close my eyes, I see your face and feel the fire of your caress.
Your presence is a tangible thing…yet as hard to grasp as the air.
I reach for you, but you elude me. Still, I can feel you;
the softness of a petal, a warm wind on my cheek,
a ray in my vision, a distant light that
ever draws me near.

-Kp
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“I Love You”

Do I love you? I have from the start.
First day we met, when you stole my heart.

Do I love you? Crazy as it seems,
Love you so much you appear in every dream.

Do I love you? I know I should.
Kiss your soft, warm lips every day if I could.

Do I love you? I know I must.
Only for you I have this lust.

Do I love you? I know I can.
Long before our Relationship began.

Do I love you? As I say;
my love for you Increases every day.

I do love you. I think it’s a sign.
I am yours, Will you be mine?

-anonymous

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SENT June 20th:

I wish I wish upon a star,

that love will bring me from afar.

Though time was heavy, my saving grace,

for soon I saw your loving face))

Those loving eyes, those pretty cheeks,

your beautiful smile, I've craved for weeks.

So run run hurry, I long to kiss you dear

-cc

You know I love you thiiiiiiissss much!!!!

so close but not close enough!!!!

hehe about to head to Missouri in a few hours)) I sure miss you. even more it seems the closer you get!

be safe))

<3 you

-cc

You belong by my side and I by yours))

Millie I miss you.. Have I ever told you that before????

lol i dont know...

anyways this is the video we were working on earlier)) I thought why stop)

I love you very much

Linkin Park - ROADS UNTRAVELED (Music Video)... by CubbyE

Dancing in the rain!

The rain falls so softly on your sweet sweet lips

Droplets flying as you bend and turn

Your body is something that gives me a helpless yearn

I place my hands on you and swing your hips

Splashing in the puddles with disarray

Hair moving with the gentle breeze

Happiness with you comes with such great ease

Loving the way you make yourself sway

Shedding more layers as we groove

Dancing naked in the rain

Watching you arc and crane

Baby, I love the way you move 

-FV

Can I lie here in your arms... I miss my millie...

Sometimes in life you meet someone who immediately strikes you as someone "special"... you know someone "life-changing"! Sometimes this attraction is undeniable, regardless of the possibilities it seems that some how our love will determine our fate. It's a beautiful thing when a soul marry's another soul unbeknownst to the bearers of the souls themselves. I have this feeling, this love for you Kristina.
I want to apologize to you for my past mistakes... I often do not feel like I deserve a girl as perfect as you..
Really I know I do not have all the desirable things to offer.. many good things come in time..



My life has always been something strange and inconceivable to me. The more sense life begins to make, the more questions that begin to fill of my head.

have a good day,

i miss ya

-your cc

KK Koala Bear

ok sooo yea... I know... lol maybe I should be wearing a white jacket :p but I miss you dear.
I was sitting at my computer watching a the old 2001 version of Planet of the Apes.. I took a pause to make some pizza bites and record you a message. ;) its crazy cc



:* :*

- love you kk
<3 - cc

I love you more than the sun and the stars!!!

Darling you are the love of my life <3

I want you to know that I think about you all the time and I thank God that he brought you into my life)))
You are an amazing person :**

and A few screen shots

Kristina Eubanks hehehehehehehe

(kk says no questions) :D

watching Courageous, missing my one true love

checkers of love

CC's Love

KK's Love

Whats your sign??? :P Scorpio and Cancer

Scorpio and Cancer

Upside: unspoken communication; deep intimacy; dream meet-ups; intuiting need; emotional intelligence.

Downside: Manipulative behavior; wounding; jealousy; emotional and psychic holds out of fear; draining and drowning.

Cardinal Water (Cancer) and Fixed Water (Scorpio)

Cancer and Scorpio are both seeking emotional safe harbors in the turbulent sea of life. But each has a significant journey to take, on the road to trusting another soul. Both have an odyssey to take to be able to reveal the tender, loving side.

It's a promising match between two water signs that feel their way around. Right away, they'll sense the depth and mystery of the other. If there's an attraction, it'll set off an irresistible pull -- these two might fall in love at first sight!

The atmosphere of the meeting matters a lot. If one or both are coming off romantic disappointment, or experiencing crisis, the open wounds make for a rocky start. Both signs keep their true feelings under wraps, and this could make for cool first few dates. Getting past the defenses calls for slow building of trust, with strategic soul baring and shows of affection.

Scorpio understands Cancer's hard shell, and intuits the sensitive dark matter behind it. Cancer is magnetized by the intensity of Scorpio's gaze and palpable sexuality. As true feelings are revealed, they build a fortress of trust around them by handling each other with care. Their intimate encounters are an "event," that melds them body and soul. Once they've fallen in love, it's hard and even painful to separate.

In the rhythm of relationship, Scorpio needs more space apart, and has a tendency not to divulge all. Cancer has to watch that this doesn't kick up insecurities, and bring out the clingy Crab. Scorpio is understanding, but can grow weary of too much emotional hand-wringing. Cancer could easily take the Scorpion's occasional cutting remarks to heart, and retreat within the shell. They'll have to learn that some things will remain a mystery between them, owing to their complex natures. But strong intuitive and psychic gifts go far in figuring out and healing their relationship issues as they arise.

Scorpio's penetrating insight helps Cancer get some distance on what they're submerged in. As a Cancer Sun, I've experienced this many times with Scorpio friends. Scorpio admires personal will, and it takes time for the archetypal child Cancer to gain emotional independence. In neediness, both signs could play on the weaknesses of the other, to "hold" on. But with time and trust, the fear of losing each other gives way to more space and freedom.

There's always more to explore, since Cancer and Scorpio have layers of hidden depth. Cancer's loony humor and childlike ways can help Scorpio take the edge off, and drop the seriousness awhile. Scorpio's incredible insights are invaluable to Cancer, and help the moonchild cut through the emotional confusion. Together they make loving parents, or help each other nurture creative ideas into being. Unless there's an egregious betrayal, it's likely to be a long, loving relationship.

With you there is no such thing as goodbye))

Before you left for Russia we spent a lot of time talking in my room.

I told you how I felt like I needed you in my life, and I could not have been closer to the truth

Kristina, you are my soul-mate! 

When I watch this video, I am reminded of how much I did not want to let you go back.. I wanted you to stay with me and for us to run away forever... :**  Still I knew there is a procedure I would have to follow. I knew that it would not be as easy as I wanted it to be. There is no guide book to falling in love. Yet I believe if I follow my heart, it will inevitably guide me into yours. Together we can do anything Kristina! I mean it. I will not fail you, and I will always be here to help you succeed. You are an amazing person and I am so happy to be yours)) your "CC")) your "lover boy"..   :* You make me so Happy)

Everyday since I dropped you off at the airport is a day spent wanting you back.

I can't wait to make your dreams come true!!!

YOU ROCK MY WORLD!!!!!! :D

Love At First Sight Behind The Scenes

You asked for it!

So Here It Is!!!

-you can take the originals in Chicago since they are big) you know) like the Willis Tower!)) ;) :*

are you watching me?? :p I love you baby)) :*

unlike that bitch Rose!!

Let it Flow

This Is How I Let Go

Guitar in hand

It plays my heart's tunes

As here, in my room, I stand

Eyes closed 

All emotion flowing from my heart into my hands

Then out of my guitar's notes 

Here I stand 

All emotion flowing 

Lost and confused 

My hurt is now showing 

I say, 'let it show' 

And continue to write and play my guitar 

Out, my hurt does flow 

Onto the paper and from the guitar 

This is how I let my hurt go 

And soon by what people read 

They will know 

This is how I let it go 

~miss you~ 

My Angel , My Love , My Forever))

Caleb:
I was telling Tracy that I want to have one boy and one girl no matter what))
and I have made this clear to you!
so lets say we have 8 girls... time to try again!!!!


Kristina:
I promise you will get a boy and a girl no matter what cause i like trying things with you *


Caleb:
You promised!!!
ill save it to the blog)

Kristina: 
smart))

You Are All That I Have

Kristina Zotova is the girl of my dreams))

NO FEAR

She is Beautiful)

She is Caring)

She is Kind)

and She is a Role Model Figure))

Not only has she captured my heart, but she did it with such wondrous grace) with such a pure love) I can never ask for a better woman than my milliechikka)

I will always love you, this I promise you.

I Asked God...

I asked for strength and God gave me difficulties to make me strong 
I asked for wisdom and God gave me problems to solve 
I asked for prosperity and God gave me brawn and brain to work 
I asked for courage and God gave me dangers to overcome 
I asked for patience God placed me in situations where I was forced to wait 
I asked for love and God gave me troubled people to help 
I asked for favors and God gave me opportunities 
I received nothing I wanted I received everything I needed 
My Prayer Has Been Answered. 

Typing my love))) ;)

Моя любовь не знает границ

О своей любви я готов слагать легенды

hehe Mickey says HI!

))) hehe so I thought I would post you some old screens from skype)))

I thought it would help you keep the memories of Mickey alive!

I love the first picture)) Idk what is happening!!

~miss my millie~

No one else but you))

Wait for me, and I'll come back!

Wait with all you've got!

Wait, when dreary yellow rains

Tell you, you should not.

Wait when snow is falling fast,

Wait when summer's hot,

Wait when yesterdays are past,

Others are forgot.

Wait, when from that far-off place,

Letters don't arrive.

Wait, when those with whom you wait 

Doubt if I'm alive.

Wait for me, and I'll come back!

Wait in patience yet

When they tell you off by heart

That you should forget.

Even when my dearest ones

Say that I am lost,

Even when my friends give up,

Sit and count the cost,

Drink a glass of bitter wine

To the fallen friend -

Wait! And do not drink with them!

Wait until the end!

Wait for me and I'll come back, 

Dodging every fate! 

"What a bit of luck!" they'll say, 

Those that would not  wait. 

They will never understand 

How amidst the strife, 

By your waiting for me, dear, 

You had saved my life. 

Only you and I will know 

How you got me through. 

Simply - you knew how to wait - 

No one else but you.

- Konstantin Simonov

American EASTER!!!

HAPPY EASTER baby!!!))))   (1 of 2) hehe lucky you, currently you get a few double Holidays! :*
missing you baby)) you belong here in my arms) :*

I adore you) The Weeknd - High For This

Everyday, Every hour, Every moment missing you..

its cool)) I enjoy thinking about you)) you're awesome ya know!

So i started a different video a few days ago, but my theme didn't seem right for the time being. :p I made this today because again I needed to express myself and had no better form but this..

KK I love you sooo much))

It will not take long to get through this all))

not long at all.

::Good ole Bible quote, the same chapter we read that night at the fountain::))

• Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
• It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
• Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
• It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
• Love never fails.

We are both growing as individuals)) but I feel connected to you even so we are this far a part. When I am with you I feel just perfect.

I know my message is more random than anything! :p but I want to say again,

I am here for you) and I want you to be happy) 

hehe of course if you asked meeeee I will always prefer to be happy with you)) :* :*  its really really really really true~

love <3

cc

there's no way you will know unless you try

I will never leave you.

even when im mad I miss you...

I get jealous easily over long distances..

...in part I feel invisible and I'm afraid I am over-shadowed by your other male friends..

..silly thoughts I know..

                     ..but I think it's silly to hold back so much...

It's time to act the way we feel, 

                                                                I don't want you to be timid with me!

   Sometimes I want to see you post photo's of you and I together so that your friends CAN see us!

                                                            As silly as social network statuses are they do sway perceptions) 

                                                            Last I spoke with you I plan on moving in with you for several months)

I proposed to you : Fact

You said Yes:    Lucky me)))  Fact

I want to marry you: Fact

I'll see you in the US or in RU very soon: Fact

I still consider you my Fiance, especially since we've never faded a part.. : Fact

I'm a stupid male and I like certain things to show that I have a beautiful woman..: Fact

^ :p ill be honest, not only do I want to show you off.. but I also do not want other men making me jealous because they think they are getting in close with you :p

meh meh meh meh meh meh meh meh meh meh meh meh meh meh meh meh meh meh meh meh < hand typed meh's... yea I know..

i miss you

I love you Kristina!

hope you understand I just had to make some odd message to passss the time..... I cannot sleep still :(

oh ya know sometimes I get this feeelllling yea.... I get a feeellling that I never never never never had before no nooooo

Hey KK!

Sometimes I have really tough days.

Sometimes I do not know exactly how things will work out and it worries me..

Sometimes I just don't know what to do...

but...

I Always want to be near you.

I Always crave your kisses and hugs..

I ALWAYS think about you and want you and only you to be my wife...

call me crazy

call me silly

My name is Caleb Eubanks, and I love you with all my heart Kristina Zotova.

I can never fully explain to you how you have changed my life so much for the good. 

I will try anyways)) :**

We have a lot of life left)) I will pinch you extra when we are finally locking arms and passionately kissing))

As it is the only kisses you give)

<3 you

-CC

My darling is sick...... :(

Get Well Soon Dear))

Added that old assignment to my portfolio page! :p

Thought i'd give you a link :p

Kristina Taken Drivers Education! :)

You did well!!! First time driving in America)) hehe I'm so proud of you baby!!
Я схожу по тебе с ума!

Read my lips!

:* I found some old pics that were taken while I was at work...

They were meant for you! lolz ....I wasn't bored.... lolz

... try to take me seriously!!!! hahaha

A walk to remember...

So I watched "A Walk to Remember" just now... :'( toooo sad dear!!! tooo sad!!
Don't get me wrong, I love good love stories))) I just... don't want to see sad ones unless I can hug you during the sad moments! Hugs and Kisses))
Anyways I was playing in Illustrator and Photoshop missing my millie))

KZ is too cool

I MISSSS MY MILLLLIIIIEEEEEEE

Kristy Warhol

I've said it before, I've sent it before.. But this is something I feel daily, thus it should be said often) :*

~~If You're Asking~~
~~If I Need You~~
~~The Answer Is Forever,~~
~~If You're Asking~~
~~If I'll Leave You~~
~~The Answer Is Never,~~
~~If You're Asking~~
~~What I Value~~
~~The Answer Is You,
~~If You're Asking~~
~~If I Love You~~
~~The Answer Is~~
~~I Do.~~

I took this picture for YOU! haha see im pointing at you 2 times!

HEY BABY!!!!

So I was in photoshop and wanted to make something expressing things in my mind..
My favorite part is how I thought of just putting KK in CC haha!

You are what makes me happy KK :* :* :* :*

I hope you like it)))

VIA GRA STOP STOP STOP!!!

Now it will be with you forever!!!

hehe I think this is a hint that you want to eat ice cream with me))) :* nice!

My "O" Face / Мой "O" лица

sooo milliiieeee

Can You Read THIS!? :)

VD Just a few memories))

You are so Beautiful Darling)) MB this is why the man took a picture without me asking!!!
::secretly I am happy he did ;) xaxa::

It was a distant Valentines Day, but sweets usually bring comfort to the when your heart is heavy and missing the one you love)))  You are soo sweet dear, you only deserve sweet things ;) :* :* :***

hehe I know you thought I was crazy talking about cake... hehe

I am soo jealous... I <3 CAKE!!!!!

III MMMMMIIIIIISSSSSSS MMMMMMYYYYY MMMMMIIIIILLLLLLLIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEE

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!!!

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!


I wish I was there, I wish you were here,

I'm lovingly waiting, to see you my dear.

For time is in our favor, and surely you can see,

that I'll continue loving you until eternity.

So open up the windows, I will be flying in them soon,

I'll pick you up and soar on love all the way to the moon!

to: kk

2:17 am USA Time)
12:17 Samara Time))

hehe goodnight love))) :* :* :* :*

emotionally draining, but necessary!

Back Rub Time???  :p
Hello KK! So I was waiting for one of my 365 videos to get done rendering and I thought I would write you something))
Rather than make another goofy hand dance video lol, I opened up a simple notepad on my desktop and started letting things flow from my feelings to my fingers. I want you to know that I truly love you. I am not the best writer in the world but the things that I write have a lot of meaning to me and I only write with a genuine heart.
It only took about 20 min before I had written a few paragraphs. During this time I stopped several times and had tears because I was thinking of the night we sat on the bench, and in the playground area.. hehe, I remember the night you said yes and I felt life so fresh and vivid. There are many great memories that I have with you. Most of all I want more. :) Anyways, after writing you I jumped into photoshop and put it into a proper form so as not to lose my words.

click to make BALLSHYYAA

Ya Tebya Loobloo!

forever..

"It took half the time
I am still afraid
So stay by my side
And hold on to my hand
Try to teach me that
I'm alright, I guess
But there's so much wrong
But there's so much right
I guess we'll agree
To differ on one thing"

Amazing!)

Opening presents with you was so much fun!! I had such a great day because of you)

My perfect)

CHRISTMAS!?!?

So I have been waiting patiently for 2 weeks now!!! I wonder if the secret police rewrapped your gifts properly))) hehe waiiiiiiiting... :**

on my way to work!

Hey girl! I'm leaving for work now but here is a little video from last night.. I was preparing my lights for future vlogs))) Miss you ttys

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A8PKDsCV9Ik

tears make it hard to make a video...

:') hehe im trying to record but it keeps getting delayed because of rain! :p

If your a bird than im a bird!

I wonder if she got him that hat! ;) hehehe